memories of mania

invincible@mindless.com — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 01:47:18 GMT

I'm bedridden and have eating nothing but porridge and chinese herbal remedies all day.

invincible@mindless.com — Mon, 12 Jan 2009 00:13:45 GMT

resolve to:

go to class!

i;m going to London on Friday with Nick. (whoo!)
i need to decide if i want things to work out, and soon.
i learned to play tiny dancer on the guitar today. (i am perfectly happy serenading myself)
and i made hannah's delicious cape cod lentil soup
i want to go back to los angeles.
(so i keep listening to under the bridge and california stars and the L.A. song (sensitive mix))

invincible@mindless.com — Tue, 10 Jun 2008 14:59:19 GMT

also, i have to keep reminding myself that i still have Spanish finals to write and send to the Universitat de Barcelona... I have a whole lotta school for June.

invincible@mindless.com — Tue, 10 Jun 2008 14:58:15 GMT

so i'm in Berlin and it's pretty great. i am in school all day, every day from 9 in the morning to 3 in the afternoon. after a week of classes, i can describe myself, my likes and dislikes and i am familiar with the nominative conjugations and the personal, direct, indirect, negative and possessive pronouns (yeah, German can be annoying... especially since i've realized that my German will probably never be as good as the English that an average joe can speak here). I have to ask a lot of people, sprechen Sie Englisch? quite a lot and usually the answer is, "only very little.." but they might as well just say yes because even those who claim to speak very little speak a lot.

I embarrassingly admitted to my entire Beginner 1 German class that „mein Freund wohnt in Berlin" (meaning "my "friend" lives in Berlin." there is no word for boyfriend in German, it's just "my" friend, as opposed to a regular friend who would just be "a" friend. and yes, German quotation marks start at the bottom and end at the top.). there are 8 people in my class. we all get along, we all want to get good at German and we all plan to go karaokeing every Monday at the Irish pub.

it's a good feeling to be living a life separate from but also simultaneous with nick's (for the first time in 8 months!). we don't have to spent 24 hours a day together for periods of a week. we can meet up with each other at U-bahn stations and have dates for ice cream. (Eis zeit! = ice (cream) time). we can even fight and actually get some breathing room because we don't have to live together! (i live in the outskirts of Berlin in a student housing center that has no internet and a clogged shower and i have yet to spend a night there, but it's good to know that i have an alternative to Nick's place). it will be a good summer.

liebe gruß.. (lovely greetings)
katherine

invincible@mindless.com — Mon, 11 Feb 2008 00:03:56 GMT

my roommate snores. a LOT. loudly. i'm in barcelona. i miss beijing.

invincible@mindless.com — Thu, 30 Nov 2006 01:17:20 GMT

mopemopemope.

i'm dying until december 15th.

invincible@mindless.com — Tue, 30 May 2006 08:16:27 GMT

realization(s) made while re-reading entries:

1) i curse a lot
2) the things i say always sound more significant in my head

i'm back to driving aimlessly on various LA freeways and loving it. and hating myself for loving it.

invincible@mindless.com — Thu, 06 Apr 2006 05:34:33 GMT

thanks to Yifan, i'm back on livejournal. woman, you make me do unnatural things.

i should be sleeping right now, but instead i am using Nate's computer to do essentially, NOTHING. i have a paper write, an entire music40 textbook to catch up on, and a lot of reading to do. oh well.

love.

EDIT:
I've run out of things to bug ryan and nate about so i'm back to writing gibberish on my journal. i have been to one class since spring break ended and i don't have class tomorrow, so i can't redeem myself by going to class for the rest of the week. i was supposed to take this semester to shape the fuck up. who am i? i need to stop bullshitting my humanities classes. yeah, if i work hard i know i can get a lot out of them, but why work hard when i can get the same letter grade with so little effort? FUCK. i'm supposed to be one of those kids who is self-motivated and hard-working, i mean..i'm a fucking BROWN student, right?

i'm getting distracted, maybe i'll re-edit this later. i just hate making new entries. and again i ask, WHO AM I?

invincible@mindless.com — Tue, 10 Jan 2006 02:58:47 GMT

I'm mid-winter break and it's been nice to sit back and relax, knowing that there is nothing required of me other than having fun or being a bum. In the last week i've been to San Francisco, Santa Barbara, and Santa Cruz. thankfully, my car has served me well in these spontaneous roadtrips.

John Mayer Trio/Phil Lesh & Friends concert on New Year's eve absolutely blew me away. I didn't know what was more exciting: the music or the scarily tall minotaur that descended from the ceiling with his fire-inducing wooden stick. Seeing Ryan Adams in all his drunken glory jam with Phil Lesh was a happy surprise, and i thought they were good together though Judy claims that Ryan is too used to being a solo artist and doesn't know when to stop. Phil Lesh comes to Lupo's in February and I'll probably be going with Phil. Maybe this time i'll buy Grateful Dead panties while waiting in line with all the deadheads, and at least I'll know to wear flowers in my hair or wings this time. I was immediately labelled a "mayer girl" in San Francisco (excuse me, but i didn't know you had to have facial hair and/or weed and beer to appreciate phil lesh)

Went to Santa Barbara to visit nik.. and all i have to say is that HE LIVES THE CALIFORNIA STEREOTYPE! he just gets up in the morning, rolls out of bed and goes to the beach either to surf, play volleyball, or play ultimate frisbee, or all three. He gave Adria and I two surf lessons, and now i'm excited for my summer as a beach bum with terra. waves, here i come! maybe this time i'll actually be able to STAND on the surfboard before i fall off the board!

Visiting Jen at UCSC and watching her and all her hallmates getting drunk like college freshman and tripping all over themselves at their "dance parties" only made me miss perkins hall and the surprisingly similar experiences i've had being piss-drunk. (perkins hall people are quite a bit more awesome, though)

XO KChan

invincible@mindless.com — Wed, 26 Oct 2005 23:39:00 GMT

So thank god the heat finally got turned on... except now it's TOO hot so I have to leave the window open and then it gets frigid and all my papers blow all over the room. FUCKING OCEAN STATE! STOP WITH THE WIND! someone told me about the phenomena of "windburn"... that does NOT happen in california.

So either i'm a very BAD college student or an excellent one because basically i've stopped going to class, and though i feel like that's part of the freshman 'experience'.. it also royally fucks me over. i sleep a lot. i'll wake up for my 10 oclock class, come back at 11, do some reading on my bed and the next thing i know i wake up and it's 2 PM and i've missed my 1 PM class AGAIN.

My intro to media class (M,W, at 1 and section on W at 2) is turning out much less exciting than i'd hoped. I missed ALL THREE CLASSES this week and i haven;t gone to screening for three weeks so i'm mute in section, which is no good. the teacher seems to like my essays but really modern culture and media is just a lot of bullshit. Now that i've skipped two sections my grade might be affected, so basically i'm screwed.

My philosophy of relativity physics class is exciting as always. i miss it once a week without fail, and considering it only meets twice a week... well, you can figure out the math. the books are amazing, especially now that i'm trying to actually UNDERSTAND the reading rather than skim it and claim i read it. the professor could be a little better though.

i wonder if anyone still reads this?

i'm having a lot of fun. and i have a bIG FAT crush on my dj.

invincible@mindless.com — Mon, 12 Sep 2005 18:44:36 GMT

quick update before i go to my Music and Modern Life Class...

I've been here for almost two weeks and I'm already used to calling my hall "home."

I know most of my hallmates better than people I've known for over four years.

we are the EXTREME. GREEN. MACHINE. FOURTEEN. (it's horrible, i know)

I got my nostril pierced on a whim and now my parents are going to slaughter me.

i'm having a great time.

my face inflames to the color of something that's veryveryvery bright red after 1 shot.

invincible@mindless.com — Mon, 15 Aug 2005 01:08:35 GMT

BI0019 S09 BIO EFFECTS RADIATION
MU0126 S01 MUSIC AND MODERN LIFE
PL0008 S01 EXISTENTIALISM
RS0003 S01 INTRO INDIAN RELIGION
SP0074 S01 INTENSV SURV SPAN LIT

YES.

:)

invincible@mindless.com — Wed, 13 Jul 2005 17:15:46 GMT

PENDING NEW SCHEDULE..

SP0074 - Intensive Survey of Spanish Literature (CAP course - taught by Bauer who is going to be my advisor)
PL0008 - Existentialism (really wanted to take a philosophy course and it fit nicely into my schedule)
RS0003 - Intro to Indian Religions (Am a possibly religious studies concentrator, so I should probably start getting credits)
BI0019 - Biological Effects of Radiation (also a possibly biochem concentrator, so there ya go)
MU0126 - Music and Modern Life (want to be in this class like NO OTHER. sounds absolutely amazing. e-mailed a not-so-thinly-veiled plea to the professor, considering that i'm a frosh and probably won't get in but he says there is usually one freshman per class and i am SO going to be that one, bitches!)

Am also in the lottery for VA0010 (Studio Art Foundation).. but not sure if I'll take it and drop something or just keep my schedule as is. If i get into my bio class, my last class will end at 11:50 on friday. wheeeee

invincible@mindless.com — Sun, 24 Apr 2005 15:39:08 GMT

my name is in print! my name is in print! i feel like i'm tooting my own horn (because i am) but who cares cause my name is in print!! it's the smallest little blurb, BUT ITS THERE... under the coachella files of the 4/22 weekly. YAYYY i LOVE kate sullivan for taking a chance on a shy teenager who has no idea what she's doing. i also love kate for being hilarious and liking my shoes.

i hate mr e, however, for making us take a 3-hr long final on a sunday afternoon.

i love brown university for hosting adoch and letting me meet my future classmates. they are all tres cool. but really, not as cool as the friends i already have. [insert the, omg i am a senior and only have ONE WEEK of school left paragraph here]

back to studying fyzx

invincible@mindless.com — Fri, 08 Apr 2005 05:58:57 GMT

- came home from LA weekly today with the mountain goats advance - "the sunset tree" - which is really damn good. sounds a little like the decemberists but cleaner, more vocals and less background fuzz, lots of piano. of course, they're pre-decemberists, so i guess the decemberists sound like them. uhm. yes. it comes out april 26th - go get it. or ask me to burn it for you

- when will mr e realize that i don't care what happens to an electron when it passes through a magnetic field?!?! or, maybe i do care but i'm struggling in the class and it scares me. i've never felt so vague about math/science material before. It would be nice to blame it on him, but mr e is a good teacher, i just suck. bah.

- my cousin has puppies - 6 little purebread labs. they are learning to walk and bark. right now they just kinda wiggle around, dragging their hind legs behind them and make these squeaking noises. ohhh the cuteness. they're for sale, so drop a line if you want one.

invincible@mindless.com — Thu, 31 Mar 2005 03:00:30 GMT

still swooning.

- AM NOW AN ASPIRING ART COLLECTER
- OBSESSED WITH DYLAN SINCE I SAW HIM AT THE PANTAGES
- MET DUSTIN HOFFMAN AND HIS DAUGHTER WHO'S GOING TO BROWN THIS YEAR TOO
- GOT AN INTERNSHIP WITH THE MUSIC EDITOR AT LA WEEKLY(!!)
- SORRY ABOUT THE PUNCTUATION OR LACK THEREOF

invincible@mindless.com — Tue, 15 Mar 2005 02:46:22 GMT

swoon.

invincible@mindless.com — Sat, 26 Feb 2005 01:36:55 GMT

soon i will be trooping off to terra's house to enjoy forsyte saga madness. for anyone who hasn't seen the forsyte saga, they should. immediately. so that i can discuss with them the horror/amusement that i derive from the saga of soames, irenee, the architect, the nice old grandpa man, june, and her father joylian who ran off with the french governess. (PS. chamber of secrets tom riddle is in it too, as joylian's son who falls in love with his father's arch-nemesis's daughter)

before that though, was today where i wrote 1 not-so-kickass essay in the 1.5 hours i had from combining my free and ditching chorale. comments are coming soon, and mr stephenson's will not be happy. i spent the fifteen minutes before school studying for a physics test which i definitely did not do well on. what's especially infuriating is that i know i could've done well if i had studied. bitches.

have been feeling especially awkward with kristin lately. we're 'good friends' but we have absolutely nothing to talk about apart from college excitement, which only lasts so long. (but i'm actually really excited again because A Day on College Hill is on april 19/20 and then the minority student conference thing is on the 21/22 which happens to be the same two days that the shins and ben folds are playing at the brown spring concert weekend. yay. and yay for going to new york the weekend before and mooching off my cousin. and yay again for missing a whole week of school in april) (damn, that was a long parenthetical). so i guess kristin and i DO have a lot to talk about for now, but i can anticipate the awkward silences to come. i need to try harder.

if anyone has any connections with a publication that publishes music reviews, please connect me also! am doing music criticism for senior project and compiling a lists of critics that i am mildly interested in so that i can hound them for internships/interviews/tips on how to review music. Can't decide if my first review should be of bob dylan or aimee mann. have tickets to both but i feel like i'm not worthy to review bob, or at least a couple decades too late.

trying to get starbucks to transfer me to Madrid for a month in the summer. Mr. Kap is finding me a family to stay with for two weeks, and will probably stay in youth hostal for the other two. i'm diving into the bohemian-teenager-living off of minimum wage ideal before college. one of my life goals will have been accomplished :)

i am the little steam engine that can, damnit!

invincible@mindless.com — Fri, 25 Feb 2005 08:21:39 GMT

Runner Go OUCH: shouldnt second semester be like....a cruise?
magicalflyingcow: but its more like the little steamboat that couldn't

:(

invincible@mindless.com — Tue, 08 Feb 2005 06:37:31 GMT

PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE LET ME GO. i never really thought parental permission was going to be an issue. i was one click away from buying a ticket before it even occured to me to ask. and now my parents think i'm going to some woodstock-esque 1-day orgy and i don't know how to explain otherwise or convey to them HOW AWESOME THIS WILL BE. especially it being my last year in southern california and for once i don't have to give a shit about APs or finals or responsibility so PLEASE LET ME DO THIS.

invincible@mindless.com — Tue, 25 Jan 2005 04:27:00 GMT

PROCRASTINATES

invincible@mindless.com — Fri, 31 Dec 2004 06:54:08 GMT

general new year's resolutions (something along the line of claire's entry..)

- become a convincing vegetarian (ie become an actual one)
- get a better job (i'm going to write a letter to the big mucky muck at the HearMusic branch of starbucks, hand it to david, and have him hand it to his friend who is in charge of marketing at the corporate building in seattle)
- work harder and don't let senioritis consume me
- workout/get in shape/join a gym
- stop taking so many naps
- hug people more often

on wednesday, kristin and i watched 8 hours of roswell on the scifi channel. started at 6 AM and just sat with our diet cokes until 2. yes. it was awesome. we now want to get season 1 on dvd. ebay has them for 13.00, too bad my parents don't trust internet auctions. the show is puts a twist on every teenage cliche. it's so bad it's great! i want to see the universe when i get my mack on with my alien boyfriend, too.

i hope it keeps raining, i like waking up and hearing it patter on the roof

invincible@mindless.com — Sat, 25 Dec 2004 20:56:48 GMT

the lakers or the heat? LA or miami? shaq or kobe?
THESE CHOICES SHOULD NOT HAVE TO BE MADE. the two belong together, as ONE! the game is so sad. sosos sad. KOBE, fear not i have faith in you. shaq just fouled him and kobe maade the three-point play. SHAQ, i feel for you! i am so torn. (am watching the game and typing this simultaneously so this might sound disconnected)

$50 at b&n.. am excited for supershopping tomorrow.

wishing i were jewish...

-k

invincible@mindless.com — Sun, 21 Nov 2004 19:12:19 GMT

the opening band, new found glory, was HORRIBLE. but alyssa and i went moshing while the lead "singer" (really, the lead "stay-off-tune-with-high-nasaly-voice-and-cusses-everyone-out-man") jumped around stage encouraging everyone to start a "fucking circle pit, man!" because "only california knows what a fucking circle pit is!". i was stupid enough to wear flip flops and my feet were more or less black by the end of the opening act. During intermission, alyssa and i somehow fought our way to the front and hung on for dear life at the rail (yes! we got to the rail!). we couldn't breathe, and when green day came on we couldnt help but jump up and down because there were so many bodies pushing against you that if you didnt follow the general body motion you would get hurt. At one point Billy Joe Armstrong's sweat flew at me. (that's probably more gross than exciting) My neck was cracked by countless crowd surfers, i now have a bruise on my toe, an even larger bruise on my back, a two-inch cut on my back thigh, and i can't hear out of my right ear. IT WAS AWESOME!

invincible@mindless.com — Sat, 20 Nov 2004 23:02:20 GMT

COLLEGE PARAGRAPH: the UC application is a horrendous monster of clicky menus and word limits. i typed a full sentence before i realized my letters were displacing each other. bitches. approximately 25 days left. yikes. i was flipping through the swarthmore viewbook and was internally cursing at myself for not applying. i'm irresistably drawn to any viewbooks with cartoon figures in it.

yearbook is driving me crazy because i have no idea whats going on and i keep making mistakes and everything is just completely blown out of proportion. why would anyone want to sabatoge the senior pages? WHO GETS A B+ IN YEARBOOK?! coach k is a crazy woman. isn't yearbok supposed to be an easy class? should it even count as a class?

green day concert tonight promises to be quite hectic. i should probably punk myself out in black eyeliner and a dog collar, but i'm too cold to care. i'm considering wearing my parka at the risk of being slapped by the fashion-conscious jen.

I HAVE A WEEK OFF!

memories of mania

*PROCRASTINATES*

PROCRASTINATES